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cat got jealous because jon is cooler then her :x
i love cat she's a homie and a half.<3
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[27 Jan 2004|05:12pm] |
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if only tonight we could sleep
in a bed made of flowers
if only tonight we could fall
in a deathless spell
if only tonight we could slide
into deep black water
and breathe
and breathe...
then an angel would come
with burning eyes like stars
and bury us deep
in his velvet arms
and the rain would cry
as our faces slipped away
and the rain would cry
don't let it end...
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[27 Jan 2004|01:43pm] |
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i hate school. i hate the cold. i hate the snow. :(
well im REALLY looking foward to this weekend. i love hanging out with people<3 especially.. yeah
im feeling really weird..:x
i don't want it any other way<3
were all monsters on the inside
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[26 Jan 2004|08:58pm] |
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jesus, what is wrong with people these days... it's so hard to find 'decent' people.
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[25 Jan 2004|06:52pm] |
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today i went to the mall with cat. we ran into amanda and joe and hung out with them for a while i got my shoes and the stupid ticket master wasn't working so i have to go to the other mall to but my tickets. oh well shit happens.
i ordered a bunch of stuff offline i can't wait to get it all it's so exciting. <3
i've accepted the fact that you don't understand me
it's not your fault
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[24 Jan 2004|10:15pm] |
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today i really didn't do much witch is odd considering i always have a super busy weekend. but yeh . im content with it. it feels nice to just lay around all day and relax. . this morning me my sister and nicole hung out for a little and got stuff at the dollar store. i dyed my hair it's pretty rad<3
well i think im either going to call somebody read my book or just sleep. i quite tired :: yawns:: right now im watching televison. it's about the south side rapest. it's also very disturbing. jeez. i should be going now.
strange as angels, dancing in the deepest oceans, twisting in the water, you're like a dream [<3]
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[23 Jan 2004|08:57pm] |
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today was fabolous<3
Bryan and Jon came over and me and my sister hung out with them. we were all just hanging out and joking around and shit. then we went to mcdonalds. jon is so funny.. let me tell you lol . after that we got food and ate. and drove home. we watched movies and tv and just hung out. it was fun. i love fun people. im going now. have a nice night kidos.
<3
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[22 Jan 2004|04:32pm] |
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i made a mistake. his name is JON not ryan. im so sorry. haha and he is a mad rad kid.
anyways, im currently ready ' the perks of being a wallflower' this book is amazing. i truely love it<3
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[22 Jan 2004|03:49pm] |
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kids just left. ha my sister's two friends came over. ryan is SO funny. we switched shirts so now i had a neato coheed one :)<3 he took the clash. we were just hanging out in shit. this kid is the funniest person alive. i swear lol. yes well anyways. my father almost said yes to my lip. i think im getting it. my mother approved and my father said maybe.. im really excited i want it so bad. man im such a dork. well im out kids i love you all
<3
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[22 Jan 2004|01:01pm] |
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today was filled with confusion and laughter<3
i love laughing and just being able to smile.
well school was nothing special. same as always. i still was hearing that music 8th period...... SO DID MATT!
the bus ride home was particularly funny. it was one of those old busses and my boobs kept bouncing up and down ::ouch:: it kind of hurt. well anyways. matt and chris were holding up signs in the back of the bus saying things such as ' fuck you' hugs not drugs' stop jerking off'. i found it funny but in an inmature kind of way:/ some old man gave them the finger it was very funny. it was one of those things were you had to be there to laugh. haha.
i'll write later.
<3
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[21 Jan 2004|06:10pm] |
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im sitting here thinking so much my head feels like it's going to explode.
i feel like complete shit
i need to reconsider things. im such an asshole, i expect so much and everything to work out as planed. but i'm learning to accept that nothing works out as planed. nor for me that is. i need somebody to call me. talk to me. :\ i need some more friends. or people i can just talk to. don't get me wrong or anything i love my friends. i mean cat and gin.
but sometimes i need more people to talk to so i can get different veiws on things and such. eh i don't know. i don't know anything anymore...im very discontent with myslef at this time in life also. i have no confidence or slef esteem what so ever . also, i can go from being the most cheerfull person alive and in a slipt second im like living hell. what the fuck is wrong with me?. jeez. im such a train wreck
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<3
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[21 Jan 2004|12:25pm] |
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im having a particularly marvelous day today. everything is fabulous. Matt was so exuberant today. i fucking adored it. I love my music. Music is like my god. i swear i would die without it. and 8th per. i ascertain music coming from the ceiling. and matt heard it to. okay good. now im discerned im not a lunatic.:x . i make no scence.:/
Matt is so amusing. and so is mr. p's pink shirt and his silly comments. haha
anyways. im in such a splendid mood. and i have no clue why?... hmmm.. well i love you all<3
. make . it . fabolous . take . your . pants . off .
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[20 Jan 2004|04:44pm] |
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i need to excogitative things ...
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[20 Jan 2004|01:56pm] |
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I keep you jealously to myself,
in a photo the size of a kiss
i hate school. it's such a fucking drag. i hate all the little inmautre assholes prancing around like there hot shit. jesus grow the fuck up. seriously.
Are you turned on?
I keep you jealously to myself.
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[19 Jan 2004|05:11pm] |
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I said I'd give my life for just one kiss
I'd live for your smile and die for your kiss
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| i have so much to give<3 |
[19 Jan 2004|01:11pm] |
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it's truely amazing how one person can hold such an impact on your life.just being around them. talking to them . thinking of them.it's so intriguing. just one word can make your day. one word from you. it's all i need to be providential . thank you. <3
he's so pulchritudinous<3
im
such
a
silly
girl<3
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| i got bored so i filled this out:x |
[18 Jan 2004|07:20pm] |
[spell your first name backwards] ylla
[age] old enough.
[where do you live] in a house..
[four words that sum you up] i am walking sex
[wallet] black with a cherry and stars
[jewelry worn daily] hemp neckalce. italian horn/cross/boot of italy. a star neckalce. star earing. plugs. watch and a black and white bracelet
[pillow cover] dark purple
[shoes] black cons.
[cologne/perfume] tommy. ralph lauren romance
[piercings] belly button, ear lobes, 2nd holes. 2 cartliages, and one in the middle and my dathe<33
MIXED QUESTIONS:
[wishing] he was mine..
[after this] i will go jump off a bridge
[talking to] frankie,mike and joe
[eating] nothing
[some of your fav. movies] a bronx tale, the hot chick
[somthing youre looking forward to in the upcomin months] shows.. and ....
[last thing you ate] nothing
[something youre hella afraid of] your mom
[if you could have any animals as pets what would they be] your little brother
[something you wish you could understand better] myslef
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time] yeah
DO YOU...:
[like candles] yeah
[like incense] yeah
[believe in love] yeah
[believe in soulmates] yeah
[believe in love at first sight] yeah
[believe in forgiveness] yeah
[want to get married] yeah
[want to have kids] eh..
[believe that you know the person that youll marry at this point in time] hm.... idk
IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU:
[cried] na
[bought sumthin] yes
[gotten sick]no
[sang] yeah kinnda..
[eaten] yeah
[been kissed] yeah
[felt stupid] oh yeah
[wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't]no
[met someone new]yup.
[moved on] sure why not
[talked to an ex] nope
[missed an ex] nope
[talked to someone you have a crush on] yeah
[had a serious talk] yeah
[missed someone] yeah
[hugged someone] yeah
[fought with your parents]pshhhhhhhhh
[dreamt about someone you can't be with] yes. actually.. sad but true
SOCIAL LIFE:
[best girl friend(s)] cat n gin
[best guy friend(s)] ryan tim
[boyfriend/girlfriend] na..
[are you the center of attention or wallflower] sure
[car you drive] no
[job] your mother
[attend church] no
[like being around people] sure why not.. only if i fucking like them.
WHO...:
[have you known the longest] your mom
[do you argue with the most] your dad
[do you always get along with people] fuck no
[who is the most trustworthy] cat n gin
[who makes you laugh the most] cat n gin
[who is the nicest girl(s)] ur gay
[who is the nicest guy(s)] i dont give a fuck
[is the smartest] your fucking mother
PERSONAL:
[who is your role model] your mom
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you] oh. i am revenge
[cried over the opposite sex] yeah
[have a certain "type" of person you go after] yeah and its not you
[rather be dumper or dumped] kick there ass to the curb motha fucka
[rather have a relationship or "hook-up"] i like both
[what is your fav. part of your physical appearance] my fuckign boobs
[what is your fav. part of your emotional being] tendacy to laugh at most things
[are you happy with yourself] nope
[are you happy with your life] nope
[if you could change one thing what would it be] my physical apperence
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[18 Jan 2004|06:10pm] |
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today me my sister kali mike and marshall went down to belmar. holla. i got my dathe peirced i love it so much. my sister got hers too. mike is so amazing. jeeezzzzz...... this kid is so rad. haha. i'll shut up now.
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[18 Jan 2004|01:28pm] |
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well well wel.yesteray i had a few people over. it was fun. we danced alot. and humped a bit. haha. i love my pesents thanks kids.
ryan tim sam sean gin cat and my dancing buddy victor haha. <333
we had plans to go bowling but it got allmessed up so me and gin went back to cats house and bendon came overand we hung out with him. mike was supossed to come over to but he didn't lol. that kid is soo fucking cool.
today me my sister kaliageh and mike (coltsneckmike)are ging to get a needle stuck through us. yum...
well i'll write more later.
good day love<3
i love cat<33 oh yeh...
IGTSHTD!!
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